Recent History 近期历史 In the several months prior to these events, Gloria had run an increasingly deteriorating course, but the deterioration really extended over a period of at least two years. If we go back in her story to her senior year in high school we can trace some of the events involved in this pattern of deterioration. It was at that time that Gloria first met Peter. This was the first and only serious involvement with a boy that Gloria had experienced. He was somewhat older than she and was quite conflicted and troubled in his own right. Gloria met him through her younger sister, Gladys. Gladys thought he was somebody special and exciting, and Gloria seems to have followed along in her sister's perception of him. Gloria became quite attached to him. She went out with him frequently and they apparently spent a considerable amount of time together. She referred to this as "going steady," but it was not clear that Peter was not also seeing other girls—although Gloria only suspected this. It appears that the strongest tie in the relationship, in fact, was their talking about Peter's problems and conflicts. There was some necking and kissing, and toward the end of the relationship some pressure from Peter for intercourse. 在这些事件发生前的几个月里，格洛丽亚的情况日益恶化，但这种恶化确实持续了至少两年的时间。如果我们把她的故事追溯到她高中的最后一年，我们可以追溯一些与这种恶化模式有关的事件。格洛丽亚第一次遇见彼得是在那个时候。这是格洛丽亚第一次，也是唯一一次和一个男孩认真交往。他比她稍大一些，自己也很矛盾，很苦恼。格洛丽亚是通过她的妹妹格拉迪斯认识他的。格拉迪斯认为他是一个特别的、令人兴奋的人，格洛丽亚似乎继承了她姐姐对他的看法。歌洛莉亚非常喜欢他。她经常和他约会，显然他们在一起的时间相当长。她把这称为“稳定关系”，但不清楚彼得是不是也在和其他女孩约会——尽管格洛丽亚只是怀疑这一点。事实上，这段关系中最牢固的纽带，似乎是他们谈论彼得的问题和冲突。他们接过吻，在这段关系的最后，彼得施加压力要求性交。 The relationship was a difficult one for Gloria to handle. She had always been extremely shy and had a great deal of difficulty in relating to boys. The relationship with Peter was a different experience for her. It lasted until the end of her freshman year at college. At that point Peter went off on a summer vacation. After several weeks he called Gloria to tell her that he had married an older woman, a divorcee he had met on his vacation. The shock of this revelation was severe for Gloria. The relationship had become a serious one for her. She had been thinking of marriage, and trying to decide whether, when Peter returned, she would allow herself to have intercourse with him. All of these were trying decisions for her—but her hopes were dashed. 这段关系对格洛丽亚来说很难处理。她一向非常害羞，很难和男孩子们相处。与彼得的关系对她来说是一种不同的经历。这种情况一直持续到她大学一年级结束。就在那时，彼得去度暑假了。几个星期后，他打电话给格洛里亚，告诉她他娶了一个年纪较大的女人，这是他在度假时遇到的一个离过婚的女人。这一发现对格洛丽亚来说是一个沉重的打击。对她来说，这段关系已经变得很认真了。她一直在考虑结婚，并且试图决定当彼得回来后，是否允许自己和他发生性关系。所有这些对她来说都是艰难的决定，但她的希望破灭了。 While this relationship was developing, Gloria was having considerable difficulty in other areas of her life. She had graduated from high school and enrolled at a large sidewalk university near her home. Her experience there was an extremely unhappy one. She became increasingly afraid to travel on the bus to school, afraid of being injured on the street, afraid that people were laughing at her, talking about her, thinking terrible things about her. She was totally unable to make any new friends at the university or to get to know her classmates. She avoided people, kept away from them, avoided talking to them. Her ideas of reference became more and more a disturbing part of her experience. She developed delusional ideas that people wanted to kill her or rape her. From time to time she had suicidal ideas and wanted to kill herself. 在这段关系发展的过程中，格洛丽亚在生活的其他方面遇到了相当大的困难。她高中毕业，在她家附近的一所大型路边大学就读[啥是sidewalk university？]。她在那里的经历非常不愉快。她越来越害怕乘公共汽车去上学，害怕在街上受伤，害怕人们嘲笑她，谈论她，想着关于她的可怕的事情。她完全无法在大学里交到新朋友，也无法了解她的同学。她避开人们，远离他们，不和他们说话。她的援引观念在她的经历中变得越来越令人不安。她产生了妄想，人们想要杀她或强奸她。她时常有自杀的念头，想自杀。 In the face of this decompensation and its isolating effects, she clung all the more desperately to Peter. When the news of his betrayal came, she was crushed. She became severely depressed and withdrawn. It became impossible for her to return to school, so she dropped out. It was amazing in the face of the accumulating difficulties that she was able to maintain a solid average grade standing, even though her ability to study was severely compromised. At this point she did nothing but sit around the house, staying in her room much of the time, sleeping long hours, and in general keeping herself quite withdrawn and isolated. It seems quite clear in retrospect that she was struggling with a paranoid psychosis at this point. 面对这种失代偿及其孤立的影响，她更加绝望地抓住彼得不放。当他背叛的消息传来时，她伤心欲绝。她变得极度抑郁和孤僻。她不可能再回到学校了，所以她退学了。尽管她的学习能力严重受损，但面对不断积累的困难，她仍然能够保持稳定的平均成绩，这是令人惊讶的。此时，她什么也没做，只是坐在家里，大部分时间呆在自己的房间里，长时间地睡觉，总的来说，她让自己保持着相当的孤僻和孤立。回想起来，很明显，当时她正与偏执型精神病作斗争。 Finally at her parents' urging she got a job as a secretary. Her ability to work was apparently quite adequate and for a time she seemed to be doing well at her job. But she felt increasingly pressured, felt that the boss was making too many demands on her, and felt increasingly that she would not keep up the pace. Her relationships with her employer and fellow employees also gradually deteriorated. Finally she began to feel increasingly paranoid about the job, had a fight with the boss and quit. After a short interval she tried another job, which was less demanding. Again she did well for a short while, and then the difficulties developed. Finally, she quit her job and became severely withdrawn, staying in the house by herself, sleeping and staying in bed for days at a time. 最后，在她父母的催促下，她找到了一份秘书的工作。她的工作能力显然相当强，有一段时间她似乎工作得很好。但她感到越来越有压力，觉得老板对她的要求太多，越来越觉得自己跟不上节奏。她与雇主和同事的关系也逐渐恶化。最后，她对这份工作越来越偏执，和老板吵了一架就辞职了。过了一小段时间，她换了一份要求不那么高的工作。她又一次在短时间内做得很好，然后困难就出现了。最后，她辞掉了工作，变得非常孤僻，一个人呆在家里，在床上一躺就是几天。